It’s my birthday and every year I feel a sense of excitement around this time. My husband, on the other hand, in no way, shape or form “gets” birthdays, so he always looks at me strangely when I make a big deal about mine. And mind you, I feel as excited and giddy about anybody else’s birthday. Birthdays are special! We are walking-living-breathing miracles. Think of the odds of being born. There is just one of YOU in this world. Each one of us is unbelievably unique and I believe that is reason enough to celebrate!
This year, I will be 42 years old. The strange thing in getting older is that the image I have in my mind when I think of a 42 year old woman is not quite the same as how I see myself.
I picture a 42 year old woman as having her shit together: confident, strong, takes no crap from anyone. Always knows what to do or what to say in any situation. Her clothes, makeup and hair are impeccable at all times. Someone who understands all the writings of a mortgage and RRSP and all that adult stuff. A woman who knows exactly where she is going and has a clear idea of her future life path.
Me, as a 42 year old woman, goes more like this: I’m flying by the seat of my pants to get my small kids out the door in the morning. Most often than not I feel like a hot mess. I get shit done but in no way do I really know what I’m doing half the time. Dry shampoo, concealer and ponytails are staples in my makeup repertoire. The days when I notice an oatmeal stain on my pants (left by a half-cleaned three year old), I usually wipe it off with my own spit! Usually I don’t even notice the stain, until I worked all day and looked down at my pants at 4pm and wonder WTF is that?!?
I have to agree that one thing I have in common with my imaginary 42 year old self is that I do have a certain level of confidence that I didn’t have in my twenties or thirties for that matter. I feel better in my skin and don’t feel you have to prove anything to others to own your worth. I also feel like I have so much to learn and have found a new outlook and curiosity for life. I’m no longer trying to achieve this and that but rather look at life as a learning experience and am intrigued by people and situations and put my heart and soul into trying new life opportunities to learn from and share with others.
I embrace and am grateful for the 42 years I have been on this Earth. I look forward to the next year and am ready to seek and appreciate all the moments that show up. I look ahead, surrounded by all the wonderful souls on this Earth, and chose to live the best life and grab all the wonderful opportunities that come my way. No second wasted.
How do you celebrate your birthday?